The police department called, but didn't leave a message.
My heart pounding, I called them back. The lady that answered had no information about anyone having called my number.
I hung up, then called my daughter who had just gotten out of school and should have still been in the parking lot. I called my husband, who should have been at work. Neither one of them answered.
Fear is a powerful thing. It can weigh you down, make you sick to your stomach and cause you to panic. Emily texted back, then she called. I took a deep breath. Then as I had a moment to calm down, I realized that the police department had called my cell phone. In an emergency, surely they would have called my house phone. I also thought more clearly and remembered that just a few weeks earlier I had filed a police report about a tuba that had been stolen from our garage. I called the police department back. This time I had enough information to get through the gatekeeper to the officer who had called and not left a message.
He wanted to inform me that the tuba had been found. It was pawned shortly after it was taken. On Presidemt's Day, while my kids were playing in and out of the house, doors unlocked, in the driveway, and in the garage, someone was watching and waiting to walk into my garage and steal something that they knew could be pawned quickly and easily. The officer was sure the offenders were just looking for quick cash and were probably harmless, but because the tuba had been pawned so close to the time it was stolen, the cameras in the pawn shop could be used as evidence to indict the theives. As I rehashed the details with the officer, the fear came back again. Thoughts of how we should never keep our garage door open because nothing is safe. Thoughts about how close the stranger was to the door leading to the inside of our home. Thoughts about him coming back.
It is often said that the things we fear the most, are the things that never happen. Fear can stop you from living and keep you in hiding. Fear can cause you to lose trust in people and lose trust in God. Fear puts too much pressure on "what if" and not enough reliance on "He is!"
It is scary to think that something could happen to my children or my husband. It is scary to think about theives coming to watch our home or steal our things. When my mind begins to go there and causes me to panic, I have to take those thoughts captive and claim the truth of God's word.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love and self discipline. 2 Tim 1:7
There is no fear in love. Perfect love drives out all fear. 1 John 4:18
When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. Psalm 56:3
This is my command-- Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9
It is God's word that releases the power to break the bond of fear. To allow us to rest and trust and experience life.
We will continue to leave our garage door open when we are in and out and we will pay attention to what's around us. We will remind each other to "be careful" and "call us when you get there" and we will still worry unnecessarily. It is our nature, but if we can remember that we are powerless over fear without the promise of a God who is for us, we can feel secure in the moment and rely on who "He is" instead of on our own "What if's?"
Is it just me?
How do you deal with your fears?
I'm linking up here with Jenny Matlock for alphabe-thursday. The letter for today is "T".