You see, lately, over the past year or so, I have grown disappointed with the person that I see myself to be. I recognize things about myself that I don't like much more than the things that I do like. I notice that I am so impatient. I get angry when I shouldn't. I am late and I procrastinate. I can act entitled and self righteous. I am mean sometimes when I am tired and then I am not so quick to apologize to those who I offended. Do you see...I'm sure this list would disappoint anyone. I do not want this list to represent me.
I have been trying to work these things out....but then sometimes I say, " we'll...that is just me. It is who I am. I've always been this way and you should be used to it by now."
But the truth is...it is not who I am. It is not who I really am any way. It is who I am in my flesh. The me when I am doing my own thing without allowing God to live through me.
I have been reading in Colossians along with some of you.
In chapter 4 verse 12, Paul says, "clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience..forgive...and put on love." These are my new clothes. They have been custom made for me by my maker. He knows that these clothes will not disappoint me. When I look in the mirror while wearing them...I will see the real me. The me I want to be.
As easy as that is to read...it is such a battle to actually take my old ragged disappointing clothes off...and put on my new "real me" clothes. I am praying for strength in the battle....and for God to remind me who I am...daily, that I might believe him.
Do you struggle with this too?
Do you look at yourself, in your flesh, and feel disappointed?
I want to be so many things to so many people. I fall short so many times.
It is a process. I am getting there.
Jason Gray has a song called " Remind me who I am." I love the words. The message that is shared in this video is simple and true. Check it out if you need a little encouragement.
I hope it speaks to you.
Happy Thursday, beloved!
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